Hiding from one's shadow is an impossible task...as hard as trying to escape from one's thoughts, being as they're not channeled in any particular direction, but floating uncontrollably out into the world, only to be thought by me.
Shadows and thoughts are a part of us that have nothing to do with one another, except they're tached to us. Memories may fade and shadows may alter, but they're always there. My thoughts have been taking over my subconscious making me aware of how many people used to be an active part of my life.
Little by little, as I age, I'm losing my friendships. These ladies have moved into retirement homes to be cared for...having their meals cooked and served to them, and reminding them to take their medications, and making sure they're using their walkers, canes or wheel chairs.
My innermost thoughts are always there, swaying and crawling to a place that only I can reach, and enhancing images in my mind that tend to enter and leave at random..... coming and going on and on!
I can no more control what I'm thinking than I can of breathing.
Was it always this way, or am I just by myself so much that I'm living within my consciousness.
Am I reliving my life to make sure I remember, or these so-called thoughts just keep tumbling out, causing me to have too much time and not enough to occupy me.
Now it's time for me to take charge and get rid of all this foolishness. Yes, indeed I can, and I will! I'm enrolling at our Palm Beach Public Library, where they're offering a course helping seniors cast their hand at creative writing.
This way, I can focus on what's really important to keep my memories alive.
I'll take a few of my blogs to be shown the way to improve my writing so more people might want to visit my site..
My blog is about my best friend. I confide all kinds of quirky things about me in it and I do laugh at my own shortcomings.
My grown-up children have no idea what they created when they suggested my writing a blog that it would be such an important part of my life.
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